Betrayal

The definition is betrayal for me is simply, breaking faith, and fail to meet hopes. Someone who betrays another person is untrustworthy. If you make a promise to someone and go against your word, that is betrayal. Trust is a hard thing to just give someone, and it's even harder to handle when someone breaks that trust. Over the years I have learned that people are not always who they say they are. I am a forgiving, very open-minded, and open-hearted, and because of this I have been taken advantage of many times. The people who I thought were my friends, cheated off of me in class, and at times I found myself ending up hurt over a friend that simply didn't want anything to do with me after wards. Being that I have been betrayed over the years, I find it hard to let anyone come close to me now. On the outside you will always see that smile on my face, that lets everyone know that I am okay, but on the inside I feel alone. If I take the time to get to know someone and trust them, sooner or later I find myself right back where I started. Being that I am only sixteen years old, these teenage years is where you start falling in love, having best friends, going out to parties, doing things you shouldn't and I am there right now. I thought I had everything perfect. Two beautiful best friends and that "perfect boyfriend". Promises were made, and of course as time went on, I find myself growing distant from the three most important people in my life. Those two girls I called "best friends just kind of stopped talking to me, and I guess abandoned, and because I started hanging out with them, I lost a relationship I had with a girl who I was best friends with since kindergarden, Ashlee Dominguez. She was like my sister. I then found myself not going to lunch because I was alone. They were all I had, and pretty much the only people I talked to. I know I shouldn't of made a big deal out of it. I should of just got over it, and moved on. I then turned to the only person I felt that I had left, and that was my boyfriend. He became pretty much everything to me. We promised each other to always be there no matter what. I put my full effort into our relationship. Over time, nothing is what it seemed to be. Things began to fall apart. I knew we weren't going to make it. We ended what we had. Weeks had past, and the feeling of regret, betrayal, and hurtfulness got the best of me. I talked to my mom about even moving schools. I had been unhappy with everything for months. Nothing ever went as I wanted it to. Day after day, all I could think about was how stupid I was to trust these people, and how much I was letting it get the best of me. Finally, I decided that I wasn't going to let "betrayal" bring me down. I put all the issues behind me, and made the decision that I was going to move on. No more making myself miserable. No more living in the past. I now stand here, satisfied with all the decision s I made. I have built back up that relationship with Ashlee, and we are closer than ever. And as for the boyfriend, we are trying to work out our differences, and try again. Over the past six months, my life has changed. I've lost a lot of the happiness I had, but at the same time, I have found happiness. I have learned that you can only hold grudges for so long. Betrayal harbors empty hopes. If your not strong enough, it will get the best of you, and I learned that the hard way. As I sit here writing this blog, I think "outside the box" and see everything for what it really is. I see that I have an amazing life. I look past all the stupid things I was put through, and how important it is, to stay true to yourself, and your beliefs. Don't ever let anyone change who you are. 

Spongebob Episode

 The hit series Spongebob Square Pants has been on television for about twelve years. The first episode to ever air on tv was May 1, 1999. Spongebob is an energetic, optimistic sea sponge who lives in a pineapple under the sea. Along with his pas Patirick Star who lives under a rock, Sandy Cheeks is a squirrel, who lives in a underwater tree dome, and Squidward Tentacles, who lives in a what they call a Moai. Spongebob is super friendly and loves the outdoors. But most of all he loves working at the Krusty Krab Restaurant. 

 Spongebob has been working at the Krusty Krab restaurant ever since it's first opening day. His boss Mr.Eugene Krabs is all about making money. His restaurant is the only one in Bikini Bottom, and gets a lot of business. Spongebob is the only cook Mr. Krabs has. In the restaurant, they have a specialty in which they call the "Krabby Patty". It has a secret formula. Plankton a tiny little creature, also known as Mr. Krabs enemy has been on a mission to steal the secret formula...

  Spongebob woke up just like any other morning. He said hello to Gary and made his way out the door. He arrives to work, greets Mr. Krabs, goes to the back, and starts cooking. Business is slow as usual. Only a few customers have walked in, and it's the regulars. When there isn't anyone in the restaurant, spongebob mops the floors, and Squidward just sits at the register complaining about how much he hates his job. While Mr. Krabs is in his office counting his money.

 A customer walks in and asks for one krabby patty. Spongebob goes to the back, and starts cooking. Singing and dancing to his own beat, out of nowhere, the evil Plankton appears. Spongebob know's he is there to try and steal the secret formula, and Plankton can't do it himself, he always has an accomplice near by. The first customer who walked in and ask for the krabby patty starts complaining. So Squidward goes to the back to see what the hold up is.

 As Spongebob turns aways for a minute to talk to Squidward, Plankton steals the krabby patty from the table, and runs to the door. As Spongebob goes to get the krabby patty, it's gone. Screaming and scared, he knows Plankton took it. Mr. Krabs walks in the kitchen to see Spongebob pleading and begging not to fire him...

 All the madness continues at the Krusty Krab, well Plankton is laughing with joy that he has finally stolen the secret formula. After all these years of trying, he has finally succeeded. Plankton arrives home, and beings his work. His machine that he had created over the years, makes a copy of the krabby patty and show it's ingredients. After all his hard work, it's been paid off. Plankton has put the Krusty Krab out of business. Now he can begin his own business at the Chum Bucket.

Courage

“Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, "I will try again tomorrow.”
 (Radmacher, Mary Anne)

 Letting go of all fear, facing your fear, enabling yourself to face danger, willing to take a risk, and holding your head high is courage. Putting yourself out there for everyone to see who you are, is bravery. Never let the opinion of others scare you from being who you really are. Everyday each person grows, and at the end of that day wether they see it or not, they have gained a small ounce of courage.

 Bravery is an example of "courage". There has been a moment through out every persons life were they have had to mount some courage to overcome an obstacle, goal or even a disaster. Bravery for me personally, is being okay with putting yourself at risk. Wether that is physically, or mentally. Firemen and policemen show their courage everyday, by helping other's, and putting other's before themselves. Every person has their own individual way of showing courage or having courage. It does not matter if your tall, short, big, small, ugly, pretty, young, old, every person has courage.

 I show courage everyday, mentally and physically. At times it is difficult to show to courage, but I have learned that if you don't show that bravery and courage you have deep down, people will walk all over you, they will take you for granted. Being that I am only sixteen years old, I have yet to be out in the real world and experience what it is like to have "real" courage. Growing up I was never faced with many issues or problems because I have parent's and family that always protected me.

 One person that I know who has courage, is my mother. She's such a strong, confident, independent woman who I look up to. You will never see her give up on something she believes in. My mother will do whatever it takes to protect me. She wanted to give me all the thing's she didn't have growing up. Growing up my mother was poor. She didn't have a very stable family. Both her mother and father were alcoholic's who were never really supportive. My mother grew up seeing her drunk parent's physically fight. She grew up seeing her uncle shoot up in the bathroom.

 When my mom got older and more mature she knew that she wasn't going to end up like her mother or father. She wanted to do good, for herself. School was my mother's main priority. Throughout my mom's four years of high school, she maintained a 3.8 average GPA. Having to focus on school, go home to an unstable enviorment with violent parents my mom gained so much courage from it all and looked past all the difficult obstacles. I can truly say I admire her for all she has been through.

 Wether it's the past or present, you gain courage. Everyone gains their courage in a different way. It may be your first day of kindergarden, or you may be a struggling single parent, no matter what the situation might be, courage is what you gain in the end. You become a little stronger with every obstacle you are faced with. You have to learn to never give up. Always have faith. Courage is all it takes to make it where you want to be.


To live with fear and not be afraid is the final test of maturity.
(Weeks, Edward)